a song that sings me

In a cellular womb of caring darkness

I waited long for the deprived brightness

One day I showed up with a shrill cry

Delicate and disarmed I returned back

to the place I just left in tears and ashes

As I tore away the shield of innocence

I learnt rational irrationality

I learnt to kill and live

I learnt to cheat and lie

I learnt to fight and doubt

the world to be not blamed

it was me who  saw it that way

with a heart so far

from being  called pure

goal covered thick in mist

to be seen any clear

hand ful are my needs

boundless are my wants

thoughtful as i think

thankless are my thoughts

i wish if i had not wished to grow

for inability is better than disability

One day the song will end

as abrupt as it began

hope i will travel and gather

as and to the best i can

thanks to the end undisclosed

i will never know how late am I

all i wish is to leave

at least as good as i came

On a lonely night……

The world i live in  

Doesnt let me sleep 

The dreams i sleep in

Arent of this world

The tear i blink away

Doesnt let me to try

The hopes  i tear away

Cascade all that i cry

………… On a lonely night

The bold i told u 

Cannot take the frost

the sold they sell me

cannot make a toast

The fragments i get back

For the whole i give

The heart you rudely broke

Worth the soul i love

………….On a lonely night

Night ends when once it is bright

Alone i wont know if there is light

Loneliness is the only choice

Which i make alone

The wishes i wished awake

On a lonely night

Alone when we are two

One when we are one !!!!

………….On a lonely night

The world i live in  

Doesnt let me sleep 

The dreams i sleep in

Arent of this world

How can India unleash its innovation and entrepreneur ship potential?

How can India unleash its innovation and entrepreneur ship potential?

When we say India what exactly do we mean? To my conception India or for that matter any other country on the map is a unique set of environmental conditions, bounded by its own beliefs, culture and customs, protected in man made political soil boundaries. Both these terms innovation and entrepreneur ship potential seemingly very different are very much interdependent. Innovation is a very general term, pertaining to any field of choice, but entrepreneur ship is the art of innovative business making, building, leading and more importantly profit making. Innovation sufficiently powered by entrepreneur skills will often lead to financial and technological miracles. Innovation cannot be tutored and tailored; it can only be inspired and unleashed. The urge within to invent is what that inspires innovation. As it is prejudiced in our framed set of bounds namely India, there is not one major inertia, but the consequences of sequential smaller inertias is what that is adding to the complexity. The society here in India is not bored of similarity and formulas, rather it is breeding them. All the dualities are decided by the society, good and bad; success and failure; obese and thin; beauty and beast; all these dualities never had a universal standard, it is this society around you and me, it is this society that we are taught to belong to, has been setting its own standards, and those who dare to question and cross the bounds, it tags as errant and misfit. As the old saying goes “the tree with fruits is the one that is hit the most”. Our society has tamed the wild innovators in it into a fleet of powerless wheels who can go only downhill. We seldom think to team up and fight the gradient. When we try and think different, traverse in a way no one ever has dared to, unwanted attention is ought to come, and here it’s sure to come. This is one inertia society has manifested to keep its walls intact. This is the prime weapon of society to weaken the outcast. We are forced to feel that the harassment of a noticed failure is far more painful than the event less routine that we are taught to choose. Surpassing this is seemingly promoted as a paradigm shift. But those who arose to shed their fears behind who try surpassing this psychological barrier are the ones who are outstandingly successful. Learning system: A major setback in India is its system of learning. Learning should not be confused with education. We are forced to learn for the sake of it. We never really have a choice in what we learn. There is no compensation for exploration. Burn midnight oil to catch up with some information and vomit it in the examination is what the system is suggesting us. The strength of our knowledge and our understanding is never really tested, all that is tested in our examinations is his/her ability to remember and reproduce. We often hear these term “Project and practical’s” in student communities. These are meant for the practical learning experience of student but how good have they been in doing so? Even at graduate and post graduate level nobody is ensuring the quality and originality of the thesis submitted. Originality is rarely encouraged and more over it is not very much respected, hungry copy cats are ready to pounce. Research: The amount of ongoing research in our top notch institutions is alarmingly low. There are many aspiring inventors out there, but they lack in corporate funding. Again the factor of inspiration comes in. The world has quite a big variety of problems; choose and solve some/one of them; you’ll be either famous or rich. The increasing number of technical gatherings does help to keep the spirits high. But still our institutions lack the laboratories the materials and facilities required, and it is the duty of the government and corporate to power the research in our country. Teaching community: Sorry to say but it’s a fact, we don’t have a respectable and inspiring teaching community. Rude to say but all under quality, unemployed candidates are taking to teaching as a last resort. Not to mention this is going on even in the so called self proclaimed top-notch universities. Forget amount of knowledge these people carry with them, they even lack basic moral behavior and simple communication skills. We are at a very shameful juncture today. The land where a teacher is treated on par with almighty, the present day’s situation is very disturbing. We need to review and revive this factor that is significantly affecting the education system. May be they can only be called tutors, who just mimic bookish knowledge half heartedly and half knowingly, just to feed their stomachs and those of their dependents if any. We read these people harassing students, molesting girls, running revenge politics. Education is made a profitable business enterprise today. The outcome of all this is very clear in today’s society; misguided youth, vision less ambitions, hollow hospitality. Is education an investment? : Someone earns for us to learn, and we learn to earn for someone next to learn how to earn and this cycle has been running ever since and will run forever. Education is seen as an investment in today’s society. We enroll into a particular course when we see it pays us good. People are ready to shed lakhs of rupees to see their wards with the weight of a graduate. No one really cares for the quality of education. Students who question the subject and more over the system are often bullied and tortured. How can one expect any sign of collective innovation to come up in such a harsh environment? There is no knowledge sharing all we do is buy information. The impact is clear. The urge to improve, invent, innovate is being mercilessly butchered at the entrance gates of these educational institutions. Only when we rule our thoughts, only when we feel we have the freedom to think, we really think and inventions are prone to coincide. The luxury of freedom and an urge to invent is what that brings up in us “innovation”. When you are demanding innovation provide with an inspiration too. Inspiration is what that keeps the game alive. Everything we do as living entities needs its own dose of inspiration. With inspiration backing us we still need something to keep us moving and that is HOPE. Hope is like a mirage, we see it only when we expect it. But the credit goes to the society again here for being outstandingly successful in providing no inspiration and also killing the vague hope we manage to gather. Some can never innovate and think different, may be they are not intelligent enough. But people who carry the capacity are still being bound by all these inertias. Very few who have the vision who can look beyond the walls, dare to swim the ocean alone. These are the ones who are born to set an example but a few gems in a truck load of stones will make no difference and significance. When we are looking forward for large scale innovation, we need to change the system. This term “We have to change the system” is very foolish in a way. Don’t look at this term system as something that is outlandish. System means you and me. Start it from yourself and you will see so many following you. Entrepreneur ship is also being bounded by problems of similar nature and stature. When we are talking of entrepreneurs we mean a competitive world, which demands more of sense and common sense. A real big is issue is doing all this very ethically. For any enterprise to come up in the market, either you need an innovative idea to start with or need innovative plan to carry forward an existing idea. Innovation is in every aspect of entrepreneur ship, because it has to be used along with ethics to win an edge over your competitor. There is a huge scope for new enterprises with innovative work plans providing innovative services in every field. For example take the area of internet marketing. Background for this is we are seeing an exponential increase in the number of internet users, which means a new way to promote different products, in a cheaper and striking way. This has lead to the development of many free services which in turn earn from the advertisements. But we see why not many are doing it. May be the inborn habits of self satisfaction, containment and adjusting mentality in us Indians is what that is inhibiting us from thinking different. We are taught to not mind following someone throughout our lives, leading nothing but unnoticed eventless lives. The corruption in the administration sector is mind boggling even if one has to start off with their enterprise. Corruption as we see is merciless. Even to do something that benefits millions of people we have to bribe so many in return. This has always been a prime setback for the growth of our country. This has become so deep rooted now it is almost impossible to uproot it. Now to kill it we have to stop watering it even when you are threatened to lose the shade of it. Young entrepreneurs have to be encouraged by the government as well. A word of encouragement will just not suffice, but it has to be kept as well. May be loans at subsidized rates of interest, template themes for new enterprises, a separate cell to help the youth can be a good start in this direction. The system of education and learning has to be reviewed. Quality teaching and quality learning has to be emphasized. People on large have to be broad minded, don’t be penny wise and pound foolish. If we can’t do something innovative and different, and if we can’t even encourage someone who is doing it, at least it’s your duty to not discourage them. Let us all eliminate this unique disease of the land “LEG PULLING” with hand in hand. “There is no big deal in choosing your way… you stand out when you make your way….”

The survival of a shipless sailor

I am not talking about walls made of bricks

These are the walls that shared my dreams

These are the walls that listened to my rubbish

These are the walls that shielded my tears

These are the walls that fielded my hits

These are the walls that taught me life

Walls are made by people for people to live in

But I once had a wall inside and I was living out

glad its no more today

In the mazes and stacks of these walls lived the most lovable animate personalities, who really made the difference. I owe a discovery to you all. May be this thing, this big bulky thing seems very stupid, and quite noisy and a hellish company to people, but I am in love with this today, just at seeing what it has earned, earned all of you. I can say this is the best achievement of my life. Before I never knew it existed, it was always subtly hugging me, following my trail, but I failed to notice it….May be it was waiting to show it self before all of you..u all unleashed it and thank you by name

This 6-4 you are seeing today is very much different from the person I was sometime back, to be precise 3 and half years back.Today this very thought of leaving all of you makes me really very sick, the thought of leaving this place turns me blank. From a door away reality we will become more abstract, buried deep in our material lives. Probably ending up a Gtalk buddies, still those small messages you send across in a traditional way “hi” “hru?” “wazzup” will still get back the same smile on me. These are some of the last few days in our life, when we are so free and intimate. I beg you for one thing, if possible don’t ever change your selves.

The  cameras might have captured moments frozen in time, but they are for others who are not part of it to wonder, the things that give me pleasure really are the snaps treasured deep in my memory, those voices and frenzy noises, those long meaningless talks which cannot make sense to any one else on this planet except you and me, I hope all these moments stay afresh even when being buried deep by the Ploughs of a stronger time. Not so long back when I stepped in the deserted hostel full of mud piles in the lawn, not knowing what would come next. I was so innocent I asked my dad if GT1 meant girls toiled 1. Now I don’t know if I should be glad that I lost my childish innocence.

For any child who just misplaced 2 years of his life under the piles of books, this place should seem like heaven on earth. But even in a brand new place things did not change much for me. I was still the same lonely kid, who forgot the way to make friends and interact with people, still strolling alone on the streets of BPGC, who still felt the only valuable he possessed was his CD player from stone age. I always liked to live in loneliness, I felt people were too difficult to handle. I wasn’t even home sick, but just SICK from a sane man’s perspective. It was all black and white. I couldn’t recognize colors so I merged them all into one immature color, that would probably give me peace. Today its much different, with too many sweets in the box, too many colors in the rainbow, making it much more beautiful than ever. I never imagined this colour ful life, and thank you one and all for forcing yourself into my life. Only worry at this moment is hope it doesn’t go black and white again. You all mean much more to me, than I mean to you. Thank you one and all for all the love and care you gave me, which I very much needed. I never had so many people to share with in my life, people would come to me, open up them selves, take advice from me, but i was always aloof. Many people have their favorite game as cricket, football or some thing else, but mine was cycling, cycling into the woods, cycling below my apartment trying to solve the never ending array maze of pillars or to climb on to the water tank and sit there for ages, and I always had two heavy duty fire hoses behind my eyes. Tears were an every day affair to me. They would come out for every damn petty little reason. I wished I was hurt, because I thought only then people would care and show sympathy which I took as signs of love and when I look back it seems so Idiotic. In the pretext of a responsible matured boy, I was still a 3 month old baby. Now I have learn t the other side of coin too, to share, to love, to care, and you are all the greatest teachers for you all have thought me the greatest aspect of life “to share”. They say birds of same feather flock together, but some home I managed to penetrate your flock, owing to my good fortune or to some one’s else misfortune…but I am proud and hundred percent glad that I chose to be with you all….

Forgive me if my stupid rubbish which I have been uttering these 3 and half years and in this never ending nonsense that I am uttering today has caused pain to some one. It was never meant to hurt any one…but a learner always commits mistakes

Some good byes are meant to get rid of people, but some special ones are meant to get closer to people, and you decide which one this fits into…It was a beautiful journey and hope it goes on forever! forever! forever!!!!!

The survival of a shipless sailor
Yours Damu

wilderness……..

The sea lies there sleeping
under an intricate weave of waves

The flowers blooming with colours
thinking if they can do any better

The land so large a ship
is on a look for its harbor

The sky not so high
is puzzled “what am I?”

The grass is boasting to the tree
we are the ones who look up!

The bridge yelling out!
Stop scratching my back!

The rivers never thought to reverse
mountains would have been at a different place

The colours never formed an union
nights would have been longer

Mosquitoes are in warfront
depending on the defenders snore

Cuckoos taking long lessons
never sing before parrots

The sun calming down the crescent moon
Iam sorry! not my mistake

The stars taking shower
Its of no use! full moon today

The days always seem worried
by the sprouts of darkness

The nights damn frightened
by the sparks of brightness

no wonder this is not a dream
life can be so full of cream

Attitude is decision
Happiness is an attitude

Can U?

Towers have fell, stock bulls went mayhem

Countries have drowned, states yet to break

In search of peace, we found eternal chaos

The more obvious than god, is we have failed

Its too late to fear, coz we reach nowhere

act now, you may not get to do later

Raising slogans,may win you front pages

but look back, you haven’t won your cause

The doers relentless of remorse

The victims convieniently forgetful

The rulers ruthlessly galloping

The ruled pityfully gasping

Many expect a change

How may are ready to be the change?

Hopes…..

The rule for a beginning is hope

The mark of an end is pain

The rule of pain is to inspire hope

The philosophy of hope is to beget pain

Rules make u turn circles

the more u break, the bigger they get

All roads lead to one final pain

That so far has been breaking its rule

every moment is a point of no return

bees head to the lamp only to die

before it comes sooner or later

I want to learn to get in the right train

My words have no meaning

My smiles have all the stupidity

My tears have no worthy reason

My hopes are meagre

My faith is diminishing

The mistakes I made arent worth correcting

The outcomes as for rule cannot be hidden

Before the ruling rules rules me out

They call you almighty, Hope I get ur mercy…………….

WHY?????

world trade centre, indonesia, banglore, hyderabad, mumbai, and now delhi…….. several hundreds have died…..several thousands injured, lost their livey hood….. and the rest like u nd me are either indifferent or happy that its not them….. i know about a word that can solve all this…. its WHY and only WHY….. if those fanatic bastards ask this question why….. and we indifferent so called good people ask WHY.. who just do their donkey work… have fun on week ends things can change…… the one who will ask this question will get the answer from him self…… jihad… what is this….it means fight against evil… but what is happening today is in the name of it poor innocent people who have either directly or indirectly nothing to do with their problem are being mercilessly persecuted….. what kind of religion is it which doesn’t teach the value of life…forget others we dont even know the value of our lives…..true religion teaches to love god and his people…… but todays religious fanatics do neither….. we have arms to feed a hungry man to help a needy one….not to hold arms….. these people just becoz had miserable life want to pass it on to others….. then why call ur self rational beings….we humans are given the power of discretion….try using it some times…..

and then there are other kind… the naxalites..the maoist… they proclaim that they are working for people…..but kill the same ones….. why the hell on earth do they think blowing up some buses.. police stations…killing some police…will solve at least a few problems….these are bunch of people who are unsatisfied with the society norms who don’t know what to do bout it….and at the right time have been utterly misguided…..this has never solved a problem even of a punctured Tyre…. violence can only promote more violence…. nevertheless ends in peace… after it has successfully extinguished the whole of human race…..pity….. we call them wild animals of the forest… but we are wild animals of the concrete forests…. some who over qualify for this post even are these TERRORISTS AND NAXALS…….

aimlessly killing people, in the process ruing their life too and that of their dependents where does it come under the catogery sane… it wont even  pay them back a penny… all that these helpless people want is havoc… that havoc they have seen and experienced they want it in urs and mine life….. a sane man cannot bear the guilt of killing even a poor innocent animal……. everything we believe today we are products of brain washing…..advertisments are professional brain washing… we loose our discretion by some mesmerising presentations…. even these people are the brunt of the same brain washing…….which is the most powerful weapon ever made…. and the only counter weapon is the question why…. until and unless u and me ask this bloddy simple why…. why should the world change……

Freedom

Independence in itself cries of its dependency. We are an Independent country today…………only on papers. Hundreds and thousands have selflessly laid down their lives, hoping that one fine morning, a man will wake up to pursue his dreams and sleep to dream about his pursuits.Today we are celebrating, because we have got a day off, we can enoy some cultural shows hoarding against our culture. What a shame that people have freedom and still they dont want to use it….. We have been very subtly programmed by the educational system and our so called prevalent culture…our true culture has gone extinct decades ago, and what we see is just adulterated photocopy of our true culture. Man is just a puppet in the hand of a few thought provoking thinkers…..we just go with the group………because many are doing it we think it must be right….. There are people to analyse every thing in the world except one thing….. his own life……….. Introspection is only in dictionary today….when we try doing it, its disastrous, as we have been supressing our true selves, in layers of cosmetic happiness,rediscovering our mummified true self requires real courage. Freedom blended with irresponsibility can manufacture blunders where wonders are expected. This is what happened with our country and with this  world. Lets act before its too late. The tree has been starving for ages, and before it falls down dead, lets start watering it and nurturing it….as the optimistic saying goes its never too late……its already very late, but there is some thing we can still do about it…….. lets review, revive, rejuvenate, and rejoice….. Lets make the difference…..Lets make the world a better place to live in, where people not only value theirs but each others freedom too, lets build OUR FAMILY…….

IF U BELIEVE THAT ONE CAN MAKE THE DIFFERENCE U’LL BE THE ONE WHO WILL MAKE THE DIFFERENCE.

rUpEE fights

We frequently hear ‘fight for your rupee”…….many a times our people take this seriously…..so many fights start off for a few unsettled rupees….in fact 99% of fights directly or indirectly involve the word rupee……I was thinking how pleasant the world would have been if there was no currency ……..Barter system is the best system I feel……..but what to do peoples needs have multiplied many times!!!!!…….I feel we have complicated our lives beyond reason……a person lives for himself….happy and stress free only for the first two years of his life……as an INFANT..then some one is ready to train u as a warrior to fight for ur rupee……..last week I was with my mom at the raithu bazaar… all I was doing was carrying the bags and observing the people……it was hardcore rupee fights every where…..I some how feel all our day all our habits, everything has become so programmed…….to EARN…its not EARN while U LEARN….Its all about LEARN to EARN…….. so many engineers, doctors,post graduates and doctorates today……..but what is the use…..it was much much better when they are a few of them…..people have become so busy that they text message while circumambulating at the temple……we have lost our senses and also sense of the things we do…..we do things ” naam ke vaasthey”…… relations are breaking down, ethics are history now……..what is the use of these petty rupee fights….we are all penny wise and pound foolish today……( Pound and penny…don’t mind for taking your names just one time……)